Family Discussions

T: You know the tears thing is getting really, really, old. I'm NOT ALLOWED to cry, EVER, no matter how I feel, but I'm supposed to feel really bad when you do!

J: Why can't you cry mom? You said that last week too when we had a fight?

T: Maybe being violently dragged over the back of chair by the hair and thrown into a wall for crying was a permanent cure.

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T: I am so finished. And he said, good, Go kill yourself.

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He said she was the worst Latter-Day Saint person he knew.  That she didn't understand the family proclamation at all, or else she wouldn't do this to her family. That he just wanted her to love them.  

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I should not have offered up to mediate between them.  I should have called my mom on it when she called me, spewed venom for two minutes that I didn't deserve, and hung up on me.  I should cut contact with all of them.  I gain nothing but heartache from their interactions, every single time.